Thank you for helping me to see the truth. However, I am not here to declare my apostasy, rather I just want to let you know that I am no longer a threat to infidels and mankind. And there is no more room in my mind to be brainwashed by Muhammad’s doctrines.
If you see me someday praying in the masjid, it doesn’t necessarily mean that I still love Muhammad, instead it is just because to show my fellow Muslims that I am still with them. I still love my head to be on my shoulders.
I learn that you are very knowledgeable from your essays. You said you don’t believe in a personal God. And you don’t believe in the existence of angles, jinn and Satan either.
But, I once read your essay saying that Muslims pray to Satan instead of God. What Satan do you mean in your writing?
If you say you don’t believe in such entities. Then, who squeezed Muhammad in cave Hira, when he was receiving his first revelation?
Why Muhammad would always sweat and heard bell ringing when he was receiving verses from Gabriel? What made him sweat and hear voices?
As for your accusation that Muhammad was a pedophile. My question is: Why would he just choose one Aisha to be his first and final victim?
There must have been a whole bunch of “young jack fruits” in Arabia at that time beside a young Aisha, right? Why only Aisha? I learned that a pedophile would always seek victims as long as the situation allows. Why would Muhammad be satisfied with only Aisha? As for adult women that he married and raped, why would he rather have widows than virgins to go after his lust?
Whether you announce your apostasy or not you are already an apostate. What is the point of announcing it? Once we stop believing in the lies of Muhammad and stop hating our fellow beings for not being Muslims are rescued from the web of hate. That is all that counts.
You should also remember that Muslims find strength in numbers. Try not to join them unless you feel this will endanger your life. You are wise for trying to keep your head on your shoulder. We don’t need martyrs. We want to live long and enjoy it. We can serve humanity better alive.
I use the term God generally as the principle underlying the creation. So when I say God bless you or I pray for you what I mean is I hope that the forces of the universe be with you and become happy, prosperous and may all your camels give birth to she camels and all your eggs hatch as hen. When I talk about Satan I also speak figuratively. It expresses the idea perfectly. Satan does not exist as an entity, but human wickedness does. Satan symbolizes this wickedness. In psychology we call it malignant narcissism. When someone says Satan made me do it, what he actually means is that he gave in to his basest nature. We all possess noble qualities and ignoble ones. It is linguistically convenient and expressive to define the former traits as divine and the latter as satanic.
In Persian we say Khoda Hafez, for goodbye. I still say it. It is a beautiful phrase. I say to people God be with you. God bless you and I think it sounds a lot better than saying Force be with you, or the universe bless you.
Once upon a time people thought we think with our heart. We still use terms such as knowing by heart, my heart yearns, my heart is delighted, or saddened, etc. The heart was assumed to be the seat of all knowledge and all feelings. Now we know it is just a pump, which you can even replace with a mechanical device. But we have not thrown all those expressions away. We still love with our hearts. We still say sunset and sunrise, when we know these are scientific heresies.
Why bother changing our language? God bless you for asking this question so it is made clear.
No angel or demon squeezed Muhammad in cave Hira. He suffered from epilepsy and the signs he described are symptoms of this disease. The following are the symptoms that Muhammad described.
- visions (hallucinations) of seeing an angel or a light and of hearing voices
- bodily spasms and excruciating abdominal pain and discomfort
- overwhelmed by sudden emotions of anxiety and fear
- twitching in neck muscles
- uncontrollable lip movement, lip smacking
- sweating even during cold days
- face flushed
- countenance was troubled
- rapid heart palpitation
- snorting like a camel
- suicidal thoughts
These are all symptoms of Temporal Lobe Epilepsy. He was not lying. He was a sick man. My book Understanding Muhammad explains this in detail.
Any person who can be aroused by a child is a pedophile. One does not have to be a serial thief to be called a thief. If a person robs a bank once, he is a thief.
Some pedophiles never go after children. They have the decency to control themselves, but if they find children sexually appealing there is something wrong with them. If you are a normal man you know that it is not possible to feel attraction for a little girl just as if you are a heterosexual it is not possible for you to feel attracted to someone of your same sex. Muhammad was a pedophile and all the mental gymnastics the Muslims make to acquit him of this crime are shameless. It only shows the depravity of their soul.
There are other Muslims who deny Aisha was a child. They are only fooling themselves.
All Muhammad’s wives, after Khadijah were teenagers or in their early twenties. Most of them became widow because Muhammad murdered their young husband. Sauda, is said to be old when Muhammad married her. But how old was she? No mention of her age is made. Ibn Sa’d writes; Sauda died during the rule of Muaviyah in the year 54 Hijra. Muhammad married her about a month after the death of Khadijah, i.e. three years before Hijra. Therefore, Sauda died 57 years after she married Muhammad. What is the normal age of a person? Sauda was a large woman. Often overweigh people don’t live long. But let us say she died at the age of eighty. 80-57=23. Sauda was 23 years old when she married Muhammad who was 50 years old at that time. This makes sense since when Sauda’s first husband died; she did not have yet a child. If Sauda died at the age of 90, which is unlikely, she could not have been older than 33 years when she married Muhammad.
The historian Tabari narrates that Muhammad solicited Hind bint Abu Talib, his own cousin, to marry him, but when she told him that she had a child, he desisted. Another woman was Zia’h bint Aamir. Muhammad asked someone to solicit her for marriage. She accepted, but when he was told of her age, he changed his mind.
A Muslim named Jarir ibn Abdullah narrated that Muhammad asked him, “Have you got married?” He replied in the affirmative. Muhammad enquired, “A virgin or a matron?” He responded, “I married a matron.” Then Muhammad said, “Why not a virgin? So you may play with her and she may play with you?”
Ibn Sa’d also writes that when Muhammad heard of the beauty of Zaba’a, daughter of Amir, who was a widow, the Prophet sent a message with her son telling him he would like to marry his mother. The boy went home to inform her mother. When he left, Muhammad was told that although very beautiful, she is not that young anymore. So when her son returned and told Muhammad that his mother had accepted his proposal, he remained silent.
Women for the messenger of Allâh were only sex objects. They had no more rights than chattel. Their function was to satisfy their husbands sexually and give birth to their children.
 Tabaqat V.8 page 56
 Muhammad ibn Jarir al-Tabari (838–923) was one of the earliest, most prominent and famous Persian historians and exegetes of the Quran, most famous for his Tarikh al-Tabari and Tafsir al-Tabari.
 Persian Tabari, Vol. IV, page 1298.
 Bukhari Volume 3, Book 34, Number 310:
 Tabaqat V. 8 p. 157